i am full of it

Not my first stint either.

Colorful doodles of flowers and an insect are accompanied by text reading, "random doodles because it's solo parenting week and it fills me with dread."
A sketchbook held open by a clip displays black ink drawings of flowers, resting on a book with floral patterns.

I feel emotionally exhausted from all the AI talk — it’s everywhere. I need it to stop. I don’t mean the actual technology just the noise that comes with it. My gosh!

My parenting pendulum sounds like this:

Too much. Not enough. Too much. Not enough.

I crave for goldilocks steady state. It feels like such a foolish thing to want.

When our children are not who we expect them to be

I learnt the need to be open to his contradictions and complexity, to stop boxing him in with labels that only served my own psyche.

— Sarah Napthali, Buddhism for Mothers

Resisting the urge to go down the perimenopause research rabbit hole aka trap to some sort of wellness whatever that I need to do to stay young forever and ever. No thanks no thanks no thanks. (Permanently covering ears and going lalalalalalala.)

Started this one a long time ago. Wasn’t sure how to proceed. Looked at it today and added very little! Funny how that works.

A digital painting of a cake topped with cherries is placed on a white stand, surrounded by two cups and a yellow napkin on a blue surface.

Check the footnotes!

Catching up with a friend today and all I can think of is what am I going to say to him?

To this question, I notice themes of life is boring, nothing much, raising kids, catching up with chores in between, and the inevitable conclusion: it’s all consuming1 and because I’m not good enough2 I have nothing else to add.

Now that’s out of the way, I can relax and enjoy the morning!


  1. Well IT IS and it’s nothing to be ashamed of! ↩︎

  2. I know this is not true. For the most part. ↩︎

Currently reading: The Atomic Bazaar by William Langewiesche 📚

(Three books in two weeks! All from the library! I’m very chuffed!)

Finished reading: Pilgrim’s Wilderness by Tom Kizzia 📚

So many themes, characters, stories within the story that I can’t quite figure out what to make of the book. Certainly took me to Alaska and illustrated small town dynamics very well!